Everyone I know since my sons birth has told me not to have anymore babies. I am a good mom both my kiddos are happy, well dressed, clean and loved beyond ridiculousness. But everyone keeps telling me no more babies. No that I want anymore not with the sleep deprivation my son has been giving me the past four nights. But, why after two do people say this. The reason I believe is my PPD they feel the best way to get rid of it is to have no mor children.
I have been contemplating having my tubes tied but I'm not sure of it's rational me talking or sleep deprived me talking.
I've been feeling pretty good lately though, I've been journaling and doing things that make me happy like shopping and reading. But today was a hard day because I was talking to aother mom who is a nurse at the LandD department at our local hospital and she was telling me how a ob assisted birth works and it isn't something that sounds to great. Midwives won't take me in again because of. My csection history, so much for a woman's right to choose. I am desperate for a natural birth and would do anything to have one. Now I feel like I can't have any more children because of the OB aspect of the story. I hated my OB after my daugters birth but forgave her for her unprofessionalism and poor care and allowed her to assist me again with my son and it was much better but I don't think I would want her as my primary caregiver. Midwifery care is uncomparable. So if I can't have midwives then I don't think I want more kids.
Oh well to bed now, who knows when my Busterbwill be up.
Oh w
